dear future boyfriend (9)

I know that I can seem a little too eager. I’m sorry I wasn’t much of a chase, but I’ve never been very good at that. I will not wait three days to call if I don’t want to. Life is too short for me to sit back and let you slip through my fingers and into the arms of someone else. I had to be upfront… I just had to. I believe in honesty, communication, and hate playing games, as you’ll come to find, despite the fact that I’m as playful as they come. Thank you for loving me anyway. Thank you for understanding my worries and my constant passionate nature. I am going to give you all of this love all the time — both in affection and words — because I feel no one else but you deserves it. I am so fully doting on you because you are an incredible soul, and I see that every time I look at you. I promise I will be patient and attentive to you. I promise that I will give you softness and comfort when you need it. I promise that I will give you closeness and sweetness when you need it. I promise I will make you laugh and laugh at you even when you aren’t that funny. I will listen to you talk about your bad day and then do my best to make it all go away. I will sing with you, watch movies with you, climb trees with you, lay in the grass with you, go camping with you, be silly with you, and be serious with you. I will apologize when I’ve done wrong — because believe me, I’m not perfect and don’t expect you to be either — and I will learn to agree to disagree sometimes. I will make myself a better person for you, because of you, when I need to. I will not be afraid to tell you when you’re wrong during the occasions that you need to be told so… but I promise not to be harsh about it. I know that I’m going to worry a lot and get lost in my thoughts. Sometimes I might get pretty jealous. It’s only because I love you and can’t bear to lose you. Thank you for being patient anyway. I will love you through every single imperfection and will be thrilled when you love me through mine. I want to give you everything positive in the world. I want to work through every negative we’ll ever encounter as a team. I want no one but you, and that’s that.

I know I don’t know you yet, but I know we can do anything. I’ll be waiting patiently.