dear future boyfriend (7)

I can’t wait to meet you. I can’t wait to fall in love with you. But you need to know something; I am scared. I don’t let people in very often, and I don’t talk about what frightens me. I have trust issues. I don’t like to open up and learn to trust someone new because I’m afraid they’ll leave me.

I’m going to let you in on a secret; I want to trust you. Because in order for us to work, and to really love, I’ll need to let you in. It may be a slow and tedious process, but I will try my hardest to learn to trust you. But it can’t just be one way. You need to trust me too. I’m not talking about trust that I won’t cheat or anything. I mean trust, that you can be open with me too. I’ve never truly been completely honest with one person. I want us to be different. I want to be honest with you because it will prove that we are real. That our love is real, and truly based on the people we actually are.

I have a big heart. When I love, it’s real love. And there is so much about me I want you to know and grow to love. And there is so much about you I want to learn and love. Your quirks and habits. The way your voice sounds, and the way your heart beats. How your hands feel against my skin.

I want us to fall in love together. And I know it will be beautiful and lovely.